I know although I said I would write more now that I'm back again ... but well sometimes I'm not in the mood to do anything ... particularlly the past 2 weeks I felt not that well. I guess I need to explain why .. well it's been like this: I've been together with one guy who lives in my flat-share ... everything was good and we were both really happy but after about a month he said kissing was too close for him but that he did not want to end our relationship but somehow after he had said that it actually was like we weren't a couple anymore ... and after that he pretty much totally ignored me and I couldn't handle that :/ so the last weeks were mentally quite tough for me ... let me tell you: an eating disorder is tough but heartsickness isn't easy as well.
But I've picked up my courage again this week ... it's still weird seeing him, knowing that not long ago we were so close!! But now it's more bearable ... maybe because I'm chatting with another guy quite a lot who seems to be really nice and positive! ;) Maybe I'm gonna meet him soon and I'm really excited!! :))
Have a great evening!
