I know although I said I would write more now that I'm back again ... but well sometimes I'm not in the mood to do anything ... particularlly the past 2 weeks I felt not that well. I guess I need to explain why .. well it's been like this: I've been together with one guy who lives in my flat-share ... everything was good and we were both really happy but after about a month he said kissing was too close for him but that he did not want to end our relationship but somehow after he had said that it actually was like we weren't a couple anymore ... and after that he pretty much totally ignored me and I couldn't handle that :/ so the last weeks were mentally quite tough for me ... let me tell you: an eating disorder is tough but heartsickness isn't easy as well.
But I've picked up my courage again this week ... it's still weird seeing him, knowing that not long ago we were so close!! But now it's more bearable ... maybe because I'm chatting with another guy quite a lot who seems to be really nice and positive! ;) Maybe I'm gonna meet him soon and I'm really excited!! :))
Have a great evening!
Samstag, 7. Juni 2014
Samstag, 3. Mai 2014
Hello!
Yeah, unbelieveable but I'm still there. I know, about 1 1/2 a year or more have passed without any post at all... but a lot has happened during that time - I've attained full age in October for example .. Believe me, A LOT has happened ... it's too much to write it all down, but on some things you should be updated to understand what I'm writing about in the future: I was in hospital in summer for 5 weeks, but the rules and the concept of the ward I was admitted to wasn't really the right for me ... but then in October, 2 days after my 18th birthday, my parents told me I HAD TO GO into hospital again. So instead of refusing to go I said ok and went to the ward I had been in in summer again for about 10 weeks. I had to reach a certain weight and after that I moved into a house where teens and young adults with psychatric disorders can live. so yep, since December I'm living in that house, on weekends I go home. And I'm so much better now! My OCD is still there, I can't deny that ... but at least I got my weight up to a normal one and I maintain it :)
I hope I have more motivation to update more often .. I've just realised again how writing out things helps to feel more free! :)
Have a nice weekend!
Yeah, unbelieveable but I'm still there. I know, about 1 1/2 a year or more have passed without any post at all... but a lot has happened during that time - I've attained full age in October for example .. Believe me, A LOT has happened ... it's too much to write it all down, but on some things you should be updated to understand what I'm writing about in the future: I was in hospital in summer for 5 weeks, but the rules and the concept of the ward I was admitted to wasn't really the right for me ... but then in October, 2 days after my 18th birthday, my parents told me I HAD TO GO into hospital again. So instead of refusing to go I said ok and went to the ward I had been in in summer again for about 10 weeks. I had to reach a certain weight and after that I moved into a house where teens and young adults with psychatric disorders can live. so yep, since December I'm living in that house, on weekends I go home. And I'm so much better now! My OCD is still there, I can't deny that ... but at least I got my weight up to a normal one and I maintain it :)
I hope I have more motivation to update more often .. I've just realised again how writing out things helps to feel more free! :)
Have a nice weekend!
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